Yup, the title says it all. I've always had goals, often very bold ones, and I have always managed to achieve them, no matter how much effort that has cost me. But now, I feel like my life is totally meaningless. I never in a million years would have guessed this is where I would be after graduating. And yes, I know, the economy is terrible worldwide and I know that at least I am lucky enough to have a roof over my head. But still, I need something to do, something I am good at, in order to feel complete. I am so not the type of person to stay at home and do nothing all day - I get bored so quickly. Being busy, challenging yourself and doing something that actually matters is the only way to go, at least for me.
On a more cheerful note, a dear friend came back to the city and we've been hanging out a lot this week. It's been great to be around friends, especially ones that are in a similar situation and know what you are going through.
After having a tiny meltdown on the phone yesterday, my boyfriend was so sweet to organize a night out. He brought me adorable tiny plants that I hope I'll manage to keep alive. And we went out for dinner. He took me to a restaurant that was way too expensive in my opinion so we argued in the car for a while when I realized where he was taking me, haha.
I had a Caesar salad (of course) and salmon. The desserts were not worth it at all, except for the sesame and mint ice-cream. After that we came home and watched Jon Stewart and Bill O'Reilly's debate. We are both huge Jon Stewart fans and the show was really awesome.
(Photos: Iva Yaneva)